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When Life Is Little Gray

doriangraylxgEver since my existence on this planet passed the 3rd decade, two annual events cause me to reflect on my own mortality – my birthday and the dawning of the New Year. The interesting thing is that both are just a mere 4 months away from each other. So this essentially means that just as soon as I’ve come to terms with one, the other begins; my later part of the year is spent more in existential contemplation.

Well last week I was watching the blockbuster hit,’League of Extraordinary Gentlemen’, and one character there really intrigued me – Dorian Gray (the immortal). Brilliantly played by Stuart Townsend, this character had layers and a mysterious charm. Added to it, he was immortal. Those familiar with the book and the character of Dorian Gray will no doubt know the legend of the man who could not die just as long as he didn’t gaze upon a portrait of himself.

Ok.. I’m too young to be having a middle age crisis. But I do contemplate my own mortality often.

Many times I do wonder if I am going to have the life that I so wish and desire. It so often alludes in the most pointless of ways. From stupid mistakes, bailing family members – life hasn’t gone according to plan. Now I wondered if it was too late for me to have the life I wanted.

Watching the movie and reading about the Legend of Mr. Gray, I began to wonder. Imagine this, you are looking through a photo album of yourself and your pictures look older than you do. How would you feel at that point? Well if you’re anything like Mr. Gray, you’d not want to look at any pictures of yourself at all – magic would be undone. In today’s world, Dorian Gray would be considered a social dinosaur – considering he’s not able to take any selfies. Mind you, that’s really not such a bad thing.. Haha… 😛

However, I believe that the magic was just limited to just one picture. Dorian Gray was known to be one of the most handsome and well groomed men in society. So I’m assuming that looking at yourself in the mirror is possible.

So what was it about this character that I found the most interesting. Mr. Gray had what I wanted – More Time.

Time is something that we all wish we had more of in our life. We just can’t get enough. It is the most precious commodity we have. When we are teenagers, we have the sense that we have all the time in the world. Yet, the moment you reach a certain age, you realise it is way to finite for you own liking.
And what if life hasn’t gone the way you wanted it to? What if you are not where you wanted to be when you reached that mark. Well, you begin wishing that you had more.
Here was a man who is immortal.. Here was the man that could have the life he wanted – infinitely. There was no obstacle that he could not face, because he had all the time in the world. No.. he had all the time in the universe.

In_Time-139117348-largeSeen the movie In Time – with Justin Timberlake?

If you haven’t, it paints a picture of a world where no one ages over 25 and time is truly a commodity. It is currency. Your whole life from that point  of 25 is to be able to get more time and live more. Allow the clock to reach zero, you die.

I thought of it as an interesting concept. Sure, there was no way that they are going to make a sequel. The first movie didn’t really do it for me. But the story concept was brilliant. Truly inspirational that you are now immortal so long as you are able to charge yourself with more time.

If time was infinite to you, what would you do with it?
The most common answers would be, travel, see the world, etc.

But here is a more important question. For us in the real world, time is finite. I’ve heard about stories where people find out that they are terminally ill and instead of sulking into depression, they decide that they are going to grab life and just go out with a bang; spending the rest of their lives, really living.
Everyone talks about bucket lists, etc.- things that we need to do and experience before we die.

For me, I spent a major portion of my life, living for others – standing on the sidelines and watching others enjoy it. It’s time for a change. I’m not Gray. I don’t have much of my youth years left and before I have a mid-life crisis, I need to grab life by the horns and ride it to glory.

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2 replies »

  1. What are you passionate about? Point your nose in that direction, and start walking! One of the biggest mistakes we make as humans in “society” is to live for everyone but ourselves. It’s not selfish, it’s self-fulfilling. It’s healthy to pursue your passions, and wholly right to chase your dreams.

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